Proverbs of a 38 yr old man

There is purpose in the pain. For He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes we are healed. When we see Christ hanging on the tree, we gasped and, in our pride, assumed that He must have done something horrible for God to punish Him in such a way: “We esteemed Him stricken, Smitten by God, and afflicted. We thought he brought it on himself, that God was punishing him for his own failures.” But we were wrong. Christ was suffering on the tree for our sake. There is a direct connection between the passion of Christ and our iniquities. In the wisdom of God, the death of Christ was not only the penalty we deserved, but it was also the remedy we needed. It takes humility to acknowledge that it was our own sin that was laid on Christ and that He was mercifully taking the punishment that we deserved. Jesus, I am about to collapse

from constant pain. I told you my sins,

and I am sorry for them. Many deadly and powerful enemies hate me, and they repay evil for good because I try to do right. You are the LORD God! Stay nearby and don't desert me. You are the one who saves me. Please hurry and help. Send me the comfort of your Holy Spirit and give me your purpose for the pain.

Study Is. 53:4

https://biblehub.com/isaiah/53-4.htm